me =/

 

Today was rough.

hold on Hold on and Don't let me go

I remind myself 

After an entire day of feeling like

I lost myself

All the things I've loved 

so far

I can't see them

Even being a mother 

was

daunting, I feel guilty

I qualify for the program

of TIME for ME

me...me

not you

not him

not her

not even it...life

just me

it feels..... so.....good...... to..... be....... loved....... by.........

ME.

BLM

BLACK LIVES MATTER

2020

2020



2020



2020



2020



2020




you are an ASSHOLE and I THANK YOU ❤

And still I SMIL3

I....am....not

ok
alone, almost dead but not

lifting my head to take a breath every so often now....

im lost

but I am not alone....I see.......................................................................
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ME

and I extend my hand

Blue skies
Pretty sighs
MEN IN TIES <⁓⁓⁓⁓⁓⁓⁓⁓⁓⁓well not quite

I like to rhyme but ill stop for now.

Zadie's

Monday Sept 18th 2017 my son Eliyus Jae Maxwell was enrolled into the daycare i work for. his teachers are Kaila and Linda two awesome people! He is a bit of a nightmare but im hoping we can mold him into a better self! He is adjusting pretty well to the schedule and im glad he comes with me in the morning and when i leave. i love him so much hopefully he continues to be happy

pianful

IM numb.........

Novocain...............




numb the pain...fuck me good fuck me numb✌✌✌✌✌❤❤❤

Pumpkin EVERYTHING

i loveeeeeee PUMPKINS

the fall is my favorite time of year! pumpkin spice lattes, with pumpkin cookies, and pumpkin pie.

pumpkin

pumpkin

pumpkin

pumpkin

pumpkin

maybe ill name my next pet pumpkin!!?

Old feelings with new faces

I numb it out

blur the feelings

that stir about

i rather be blind then see the truth

so what you say is never proof

dont know to come or where to go

away is far but near is close

lets say we did and never do

i just need time to get over you

daycare

I am working now YAY and NAY... i was offered a fulltime position at a low wage, and i took it bc i had nothing else. i am in school at the moment working towrds my CDA! in order to obtain my CDA i have to volunteer or work at a daycare for 450 hours, so there is why i took it.
i hate not spending time with my son, i take care of 12 other persons children and mine is taken cared by someone....makes sense right? <___ 2="" 9="" and="" are="" awake="" away="" backwards="" best="" both="" but="" can="" cant="" come="" eliyus="" everything="" exhausted.="" express="" him="" home="" hours="" i="" is="" like="" make="" memories...he="" my="" p="" so="" teach="" the="" things="" this="" to="" truly="" try="" ugh="" universe="" until="" wait="" we="">

friend or foe

one day friend

one day foe

as one ends

the other must go

you make me stay

to get in the car and leave me alone

why ?

Friend...

What is your definition of friend?
would it be someone to talk to...
maybe someone to hug
would they be someone who sees you
Without being a judge
What is my definition of friend?

Update on my birthday...

lol....well it didnt happen!

of course, i have no friends and the ppl that care for me are either broke or just have lives!! haha but there is always next year and it will be a redo! hahahah im in love with the unicorn cake ugh

i went out for dinner and the next day spent some time on the beach very laid back. then explosives erupted back to reality. but it was needed i would say, things happen for a reason
well i believe they do, i was able to see things in the light.

hopefully next year i will be spending my birthday on vacation!

my 30th birthday!

i want a surprise magical unicorn themed birthday party!!!!!!!!!!!

any takers???? its super cute and i can use the phrase IM HORNY hahaha love!

glitter everything....and cotton candy.....with sexy people!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a girl can dream cant she?

the one i used to know

Are you him?
the one i used to know
the one i used to love
the one i used to think life would end without?
do you happen to know
the one i of who i speak?
i miss what i used to know
but im unsure if that is what i need now
I have agendas goals desires
can that man understand and want the same things?
Hello...
are you there?
i hope so and i hope not
its all so very confusing
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YAB

you are beautiful....and dont even know it
you are beautiful...but never really show it
you are beautiful...but i wont tell you why
you are beautiful....all you do is lie
you are beautiful....but showed me otherwise
you are beautiful....but you will never know it