worries...thoughts

my feet swell
my hands hurt
the list undone OF TO DOS
tummy discomfort
doctor who is not as attentive
ultra sounds postponed
I worry about what is going on
bc he is my first
what do I do
what do I feel
where do I go
who do I see
so many many questions
???????????????????????????????????????
blah HELP

i see you

I watch
she know
I don't hide
she know
im not scared
she know
ten steps ahead
she know
I liked her for a moment
she knew
took me for a fool
I know
not too smart tho
you know
I play chess
don't know?
Strategy the name of the game
she know
high hopes
I knew
not high enough
too true
pick and choose
he knew
not you
I knew
hearts and minds don't mix
we know

VALENTINE'S DAY

This day is definitely overrated. I just like the thought that should be thought everyday....
He def made it special just THINKING about me. he knows me...
breakfast
secret texts
wild goose chase
alone time
shopping
romanticism
and at the very end of it alllllllllllllllll..................SOME BANGING ASS VALENTINES DICK!!!!!!!
LMAO

sorry it is just to good to not brag about lol

We fit and the fit is just enough

hearts...kisses....hugs....candles....food.... LOVE

everything I ever need and more

LOVE love LOVE

you and I
popa and moma <3 font="">

WISHES

wishes...fall on deaf ears
she writes until the night comes
lonely....im sure
makes for a darker, forceful stroke
wishes....the star is out for the night
she looks looks looks deeply
yearning...im sure
for a love once had not now
go away pain....
burns so good until her skin is burned
she runs
into arms of another for the moment
feels good...or bad...both
she doesn't understand
the wound
its deep but its from her own infliction
her own knife, her own actions
wishes....the bone has broke years before
Hopes were all she had
hurting whoever she could along her road of unhappiness
While keeping a grip on the man
who has long forgotten
of ....the wish
she had spoken of once before
Deaf ears don't listen
poor she
holding to what can be
once gone never to be
do you see?
look away...or
let the eyes of desperation burn your sight
then when blind and deaf
she will have nothing but her insides to fight
im sure

its love...

he hugs me

from the inside in

we are in this together

for the rest of our lives

Baby I love you

I adore you

and everyday you show me the same

hang on tight

we are almost there

Our lives will start

happiness...love...faith...loyalty...will ensue

taking over our bodies

until the past feels like a book once read

chapters of written adventures

countless words of thoughts

we will flip them together

looking into what may have been our demise

ill see you in the sequel

Baby

<3 strong="">

LOVE STORY

we have an unordinary love story.

Starting from the depths of lust we became ...well quaint.
I was involved in what one can call a dead relationship. He was free, completely in every sense of the word. Unknown to my world he reeled me ...........in deeper. Mentally.
took us a while of intimate conversation but once I was hooked, that was it. He knew exactly what to say, where to touch, and how to look... I broke down faster than ice against blazing fire.
I left the other once I gained the strength, making me weak all In the same. He captured me seemed warm seemed honest. false pretenses.
Years and years pass....
many heartaches, fights, other people....from both ends we fell in and out of love
always finding our way back into each others arms. nothing else ever mattered when we held each other, today the same exists.
We hold something very dear to us, a baby boy and with this love.....our love grows strong.
Willow trees blocking rays that can harm our roots....
a better you a better me a better us for family what we' ve always been

I love you Papa Bear <3 p="">
our story continues

Friends

we talked....we laughed.....we touched....we bonded....we sat...we looked....we ate...we enjoyed....we cried....we became one....we dreamed....we hoped....we danced....we laid.....we promised.....we smelled.....we washed....we tasted.....no other love is OUR LOVE

33 weeks

I feel you more than ever
baby boy
you are on your way
baby boy
I wait for you to see you
baby boy
my life is yours now
baby boy
everything I am and will be belongs to you
baby boy
to rock you
to kiss you
to hold you
to show you
baby boy
im here
THAT DAY WILL BE THE FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE..
DADDY AND MOMMY LOVE YOOU
BABY BOY

Glass

breakable
fragile
gentle
careful
see through
cracked
beautiful
sand
lightning
strong

you Push me away

further from friendship

further from love

further toward solitude

 

you PUSH me

 

I fall

into deep sadness

with blue thoughts

twirling with the devil

 

you PUSh me

 

without intention

without conviction

 

you PUSH me to

PICK me up

 

 

leaving me blank

 

once again

DOWN SOUTH

planning to move out of the north
                                                                                                                                   incredible
My partner is accepting of this and is now ready to go
now we make steps, lists, and accommodations to move
looks like the end of this year would be best so I can save all I can and find something reasonable.
                          yes
                                I am scared!
but life is meant to be adventurous and risks should be taken
I haven't done anything like this before
if we fail we track back to the city we know
but I highly doubt we wont succeed
I know us and we are awesome
looking into florida and Georgia
this will be fun
as long as I have my family with me
I cant be torn down
You little guy and I
lets do this
 PRAY FOR US

JUJU

Verbalization

Our talks are always very necessary.... He spoke deeply with me letting me into his soul...I  loved every minute of it... he told me things I wanted to ask of him but didn't need to... we are in a place that speaks volume...sex is still strong too unbelievable to have this...I've been waiting for a thousand years and it seems like you have been waiting too...Here we are. you ready?

we have so much ahead of us but it looks promising...the doubts you have the pain you feel, I am there with you. many things in common...my friend you are and I you will always be....forever <3 p="">