think

i am different...i am calm...the wind blows vigorously while i walk against it in a swaying manner




breath....breath....breath....breath....breath....count 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 2 3 5 6 7 8 9
rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr
think happy thoughts
think positive thoughts
think about peace and equality
think of you and i
what we stand for
love
think think think hard and long

yesterday was nice

I got to see my airport family... love those spirits they make me feel so good
they like me
they think I'm funny
they want me around
they are amazing
they i want to see some more

janice, monika, jaqui, stacy, jaison, carol....love


thank you

today i change my life for the better....

Today i change my life for the best
only positivity
from this moment forward
today i am great
today i am amazing
today i am rich
today i am happy
today i am in love
today i have a fully working car
today i know all of my music
today i am successful
today today today
not tomorrow

my aspiration....

to be happy.....

she is exactly who i thought she was...

You walk around like you are different but.... you are all the same
i aint had shit to do with your little problem but....you included me anyway
you are malicious, devious, loose lipped, manipulative, and untrustworthy
but....i fell for your little trick game whatever you want to call it
i have a hundred and one words to say to you.
you are a bitch, you are a child, nothing about you coincides with me....but you are here
i don't know what he truly sees in you and why he chose to stick you here
love is really a stupid thing
his love for you only came from the result of being malnourished from me...
don't you get that...my leftovers my hurt
you were there to catch and he needed that for that one moment
that why he came back to me
you are a street bitch and always will be one. the way you talk the way you walk the way you smell like a street rat.
the first thing you know how to do is attack, when you don't know anything else to do with yourself you jump to hurt. its fine though bc it doesn't bother me
i know what i am ....do you>?
in denial you think your relationship mattered before now..i didn't
thats bc you chose to do your holy duties with other men and he didn't want no...HOE lol
We can fight all we want but none of that shit matters i can care less about who you are and wanted to save anything with you bc i don't want you here
never did never will
you are fun yes i admit it sometimes but you always go back and do the same shit bringing us back to point A matter of fact we are not even at point A we are at no point what so ever.
you rub me wrong
you fuck me man
you hurt him
and then hurt me or try to at least
you say one thing and then say something else
you are fake and don't know it...which is sad....so sad....go ahead with yourself self destructive self
i am out of here and I'm hoping one day he follows...
if not then i have to feel the bullet and take the pain for what it is...

.....the end

i think she is the P word, its scary bc i already know how i will take this and what my take on this will be.
I won't choose to support something i wanted, nor will i stick around to bother the people around me.
She looks bigger, timid, idk what to think. thats what he wanted though. me or her thats what he wished for. I hope he is happy but i also hope he misses me.
I won't stay, i won't, not what i want.

BANG BANG

I encountered my first gun shots. It was unpredictable, loud, and disturbing.

I was near but not in sight. Makes you think, a lot about life
I don't choose this won't.
until next time.

Safe night