Soul and Rub

This is me right now... I am experiencing a high like no other.

love by rubs

soul in the air

flying jets in my ear

love by rubs

happy

I'll be seeing you

I'll find you in the morning sun and when the night is new
I'll be looking at the moon but I'll be seeing you..."

I guess it all comes down to this one fact...


All I want is to be someone's everything....

too much to ask...im sure...

blank

just surface

you see
nothing new

a sheep in a meadow
eating grass

without a clue

dreams of adventure and life

nothing new for me

blank time...nothing happens
nothing new

dreams of love and far away fantasies

nothing new from me...either way the sun comes up when the moon goes down...
new scares me

so i do nothing
blank
just surface i scratch

where is my destiny...can u tell me now? save me the agony!


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Christmas 2012

Merry Christmas to all...

I made like a bandit this christmas and i didn't expect ANYTHING at all. Pretty cool though, I got lots of fun things...

here is a list:

Ring set from Swarovski
Perfume set (Ed Hardy) even though my mom get me the cologne set i knew what she meant lol
2 funky slipper socks!
3...yes 3 pairs of gloves lol
The Northface sweater
50$ gift card to Walmart
Make-up brush set
chocolate liquor
scratch off ticket
Manicure set
make-up bag
and other stuff

a lot right??????

well i am very grateful for my family and every christmas spent with them. im definitely blessed.

Much love and happiness. World.

juju

Very Happy Unbirthday...

Months before my birthday (June 14th) I started planning my party! I wanted something memorable this year...25...25...im hitting a quarter of a century! Pretty Big deal for me....i like.... no.... LOVE getting older.
....WELLLLLLL..
My ideas ranged from...80s wear to Burlesque fun to my final thought --> an awesome Mad Hatter Tea Party (which might still be done)
It all was so exciting. All i needed was an open area to fit a long conference style table for 25 people. Some tea sets and DRUGS... (Brownies...Fun Pills that make you LARGE or SMALL)
The days were flying and I couldn't get everything i wanted together. So as the weeks passed i tried to figure something ELSE  out. i planned Hoboken and told everyone i knew about what i wanted. The only ones that came out were:
My Sister, her husband, my friend (carol), her husband, i dont even remember who else came except my friend JEFF--> mad late lol
I was drunk by the time my friend jeffy came! So we partied and left pretty early considering I didnt eat and drank mad drinks bc Carol's husband's brother worked at this joint! ;)
I got in the car....threw up...and got home to sleep! lmao NO BIRTHDAY SEX that night...results?

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY!

THE END




hahaha
make this up very soon

First off...

Let me start by saying...WHAT A YEAR...last time I wrote i failed a class...visited Las Vegas...celebrated my 25th...Say St Thomas with my lover's best friend...been head to head with my lover...experienced a painful cyst on my tailbone....got suspended from my flight benefits....sent HIM to UK to fuck some chick (although he came back to repent ;) lol ummm performed in an school Opera...got mugged...etc....

All stories on their own....

Just warning you of the catching up i need to do!

BLOGtime

YAY............

hey blog world...

Im BACK...

lol

Well it has been a while since I have written anything on here. BUT don't take that as neglect! You were missed ;)
Well in the next few days I will be filling you in on my summer and fall...The rise and the fall of my heart <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
Im having and feeling better than ever!

T2YL...

Fail

OMG....
Failed? I failed? SHITTTT
I cant remember failing anything since Sophmore year of highschool and that was an F for one quarter of the year! Welp now I did it.... I failed a college course... Business at that! One of my main courses for my degree!
Someone tell me I am going to live through this?! I will i know... Well all there is to do now is...
ACCEPT it
Embrace it and
MOVE on
Now i will register again for the same class....
CRap....

To understand me is to love me...

I love myself...
bc i understand that i am a NUT
a confused Beauty
a nervous Wonder
a person with too much to love!
I have been going through serious ups and downs, good times and bad times, smiles and frowns....but i am happy
yes i am happy
i work, i live, i love
it hasnt been the best life so far but i have learned many things and hopefully SOON will be able to organize and teach them to the world.

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controversial...

The saddest people are the most interesting....
When you dont love you dont get hurt...
When you've been hurt you never forget...

is this true? to you?

Love to all who Love me

As i sit here in my room confronted by the ghosts from the past, i realized. It's my life. It's me in the end. Nothing really matters unless I want it to matter. It starts to make sense then confusing so i move on to the next subject, i realized. It's me. Maybe it's me. As that reoccurring sight came back to me and i tried to step back, i realized. It's back to reality....

Knowledge Junkie...

So... lately i been "finding myself" and i found out something quite unsettling. I am a KNOWLEDGE JUNKIE!
WHy is this unsettling you say? Well I am not satisfied until i KNOW everything, which is inevitably impossible!
...unless i work at a library and read every book on the shelf for the rest of my life...
IMPOSSIBLE...
yea but i catch myself googling everything lately.
Including not limited to-
chess, color to set the mood, overlooked movies, traveling, jewlery, mannerisms, music, baking, grammer, child care rules...etc.
I mean really just a bunch of randomality, but I feel at the moment i need to know something...
facts are fun for me...fun snapple facts give me a THRILL
its a bit insane to me BUT...guess what??
Its me and i am happy about being just that
ME

Superstition

So i am really happy to say i am blessed for what i have accomplished in life. It is not spectacular but it is more than most. I am able to fly for no charge, and make money for what i need. I also can enjoy the company and love of someone as intelligent as HIM when i want. I have broken 2 mirrors in the last year and superstition has it...that a mirror broken is 7 years bad luck!!!!
You know where that would leave me?
Stuck in time forever!
well...i still havent come to the conclusion if i believe in superstition or not, but by the end of this year ill let you know what i make of it!

2011 is gone 2012 is now

running deeply thru my veins, they capture me
wrapping me up in imagery, they captivate
foretelling  the future, foreshadowing my now
Embellishing the dreams of the years ive just had

positivity flows deeply now
knowing nothing of the pain that lingered about
i teach them to steer
to stay clear of blind collision

my thoughts they are stronger
they are wise
convinced nothing less than otherwise
chemically imbalanced portraits of fear

go now....live strong for this year

JuJu <3

New Year New Me...2012

It seems like this is the motto for 2012...
"A New Year A NEw Me"
well i personally....LOVE it!
i feel just as you do.
We need to grow up and this year smells like the year to change everything. I have a job, a brain, a heart..and i intend on making myself stronger...
no complaints from here on out...
HELLO 2012...

IM HERE!!

<3