Its beautiful outside!
I am unfortunately at work but the good news is that I leave in 30 mins! YIPPEE
Last night was rough but I am always happy to be there for the love of my life whatever he needs im there we are family and death is where my loyalty stops!
Today, I will get home shower and do the things I want *isn't that exciting?* lol
I am silly I just done a bunch of nothing for years and wasted a lot of time being unmotivated that I am filled with energy when I think about what I can accomplish with this time I have!
love peace and chicken grease
see ya later
Saturday, January 30, 2016
Friday, January 29, 2016
imaginary baby
I imagine my little boy so vividly when I am home. He is already so part of my life!
When I sit on the couch I see him usually laying in between my legs. Or when my lover lays on me I see my prince coming to lay on us and cuddle us. it is the most gratifying thing and it hasn't even started yet!
I am just looking forward to seeing his face and holding his hand. tucking him to sleep and kissing his sweet cheeks. I love you so much my sweet may we make each other proud as human beings.
see you soon
When I sit on the couch I see him usually laying in between my legs. Or when my lover lays on me I see my prince coming to lay on us and cuddle us. it is the most gratifying thing and it hasn't even started yet!
I am just looking forward to seeing his face and holding his hand. tucking him to sleep and kissing his sweet cheeks. I love you so much my sweet may we make each other proud as human beings.
see you soon
Day OFFFFFFF
Yesterday was my day off so of course I didn't write in the blog bc I was too busy enjoying my dang day off!
My lover and I had a great morning conversation about my past demons and what needs to continue on my part in order for me to be the happiest I can...
Let go let go let go
shit happened and shit happens!
Im not making what I have a fairytale its far FAR from it..... but it does feel so great fills my soul and I am positively sure I fulfill his soul as well.
We had breakfast he cooked me some amazing banana Muffin PANCAKES lol weird I know but worked out, it was muffin mix and he just cooked them flat hahahah
all the while listen to Fabulous' monotone ass Mixtape
Then we finished the morning watching "the intern" which was a very good movie!
Took a 20 minute nap...which always sucks bc of how tired I get afterwards lol and then he went to work while I:
got an oil change
visited my mom
went to the fruit market and then picked him up later!
Got home took a shower, watched an episode on Hulu while we took it down for the night!
My lover and I had a great morning conversation about my past demons and what needs to continue on my part in order for me to be the happiest I can...
Let go let go let go
shit happened and shit happens!
Im not making what I have a fairytale its far FAR from it..... but it does feel so great fills my soul and I am positively sure I fulfill his soul as well.
We had breakfast he cooked me some amazing banana Muffin PANCAKES lol weird I know but worked out, it was muffin mix and he just cooked them flat hahahah
all the while listen to Fabulous' monotone ass Mixtape
Then we finished the morning watching "the intern" which was a very good movie!
Took a 20 minute nap...which always sucks bc of how tired I get afterwards lol and then he went to work while I:
got an oil change
visited my mom
went to the fruit market and then picked him up later!
Got home took a shower, watched an episode on Hulu while we took it down for the night!
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
31 WEEKS AND 3 DAYS
hey PEEPS,
I am working today open 730am- close 6pm...insane right?
well, I am here eating a Boston crème donut ::which is insanely naughty and scrumptious:: and internet surfing.
I've looked for a Baby shower dress (no luck)...moving to Denmark (highly considering)....ideas for my maternity pictures before my balloon pops! etc.
I daydream about my leave the things I need to get done, the things I want to get done, the possibilities!!!!!!!!! lol but I will have a small addition that may keep me busy so i don't know what to expect!
i have a career i want to start. Projects I wish to collaborate on. Ideas and wishful thinking!
Malls, libraries, events, nature, journals, growth, music, art, love, vacations i hope it all comes together for me!
the future seems so bright right now, but im broke! lol
Ill ind a will and a way
JUST WATCH
I am working today open 730am- close 6pm...insane right?
well, I am here eating a Boston crème donut ::which is insanely naughty and scrumptious:: and internet surfing.
I've looked for a Baby shower dress (no luck)...moving to Denmark (highly considering)....ideas for my maternity pictures before my balloon pops! etc.
I daydream about my leave the things I need to get done, the things I want to get done, the possibilities!!!!!!!!! lol but I will have a small addition that may keep me busy so i don't know what to expect!
i have a career i want to start. Projects I wish to collaborate on. Ideas and wishful thinking!
Malls, libraries, events, nature, journals, growth, music, art, love, vacations i hope it all comes together for me!
the future seems so bright right now, but im broke! lol
Ill ind a will and a way
JUST WATCH
My king
If I can take all the years of pain and disrespect we caused upon one another, I would bare it on my nude body and nail myself to a wooden cross to show you the value of your life to me. I cant take anything we may feel from the past away but I can continue to show you that you are the King that holds my heart in his hands.
This child I nourish inside of me is a symbol of what our love is capable of creating... He will be the proof in the pudding I hold with such esteem. I am ecstatic to reward your love for me with this one of a kind child, that will flow with your blood, your thoughts will caress his conscience and your love will mold his life.
I have many demons if you haven't seen already, I let the past haunt me. I don't allow my power to shine. I was never nurtured to be great, but I am confident those days will be far behind me soon enough.
I can not promise to make you the man you may want to become but I promise to love the man that you will always be, the man that has loved me unconditionally.
We fall to help each other up. In every dead end we will have each other where one will see the light.
My King, I only hope that one day you will see the Queen I am and allow me the space to walk with you to everlasting life. Together we will unite and become one....
This child I nourish inside of me is a symbol of what our love is capable of creating... He will be the proof in the pudding I hold with such esteem. I am ecstatic to reward your love for me with this one of a kind child, that will flow with your blood, your thoughts will caress his conscience and your love will mold his life.
I have many demons if you haven't seen already, I let the past haunt me. I don't allow my power to shine. I was never nurtured to be great, but I am confident those days will be far behind me soon enough.
I can not promise to make you the man you may want to become but I promise to love the man that you will always be, the man that has loved me unconditionally.
We fall to help each other up. In every dead end we will have each other where one will see the light.
My King, I only hope that one day you will see the Queen I am and allow me the space to walk with you to everlasting life. Together we will unite and become one....
Tuesday, January 26, 2016
Count Down
The count down begins...
to Motherhood
I will write everyday....to cure boredom...to keep stationary...and to lead someone who will follow
Today I start the countdown my last day of work will be March 10th!!
that is approximately 44 days away....
1,056 hours from now-
63,360 minutes to go@
lol
ok let me stop! before I turn into a Musical and fail miserably.
I definitely used a calculator by the way, no genius mathematician here.
today I make 31 weeks and 2 days pregnant. the baby shower is next month a few weeks away!
I have so much to do this coming month I think it may go pretty fast.
baby shower....labor plans...packing for labor...preparing baby stuff (wash, room)...getting paperwork together...FINDING MY PEACE OF MIND
LOL
So yes this month is definitely going to fly by and March will be here before I know it. Then its show time!
I cant wait ...
talk to you guys LATER
Juju <3 p="">
to Motherhood
I will write everyday....to cure boredom...to keep stationary...and to lead someone who will follow
Today I start the countdown my last day of work will be March 10th!!
that is approximately 44 days away....
1,056 hours from now-
63,360 minutes to go@
lol
ok let me stop! before I turn into a Musical and fail miserably.
I definitely used a calculator by the way, no genius mathematician here.
today I make 31 weeks and 2 days pregnant. the baby shower is next month a few weeks away!
I have so much to do this coming month I think it may go pretty fast.
baby shower....labor plans...packing for labor...preparing baby stuff (wash, room)...getting paperwork together...FINDING MY PEACE OF MIND
LOL
So yes this month is definitely going to fly by and March will be here before I know it. Then its show time!
I cant wait ...
talk to you guys LATER
Juju <3 p="">
CONFIDENCE
confidence is key
the unnatural way of thinking comes from a self pride seen or taught from another
confidence holds life
the quaint replica of finding ones true being
confidence seeks truth
the personification that is the good and bad decisions
I not only was aware that my confidence wasn't to par but accepted it to blame for my mistakes, insecurities, and my way of life. I never once took responsibility for the being for which I am. only you hold the essence which is you, neither good nor bad happenings should hinder an individuals light. I took what was negative too drown what was me, the light I have inside.
Today I hold a child to bare into the world, which to me was filled with no more hope than my life...
I toast to your heart my love, may we be confident in ourselves and enjoy what life brings our way
the unnatural way of thinking comes from a self pride seen or taught from another
confidence holds life
the quaint replica of finding ones true being
confidence seeks truth
the personification that is the good and bad decisions
I not only was aware that my confidence wasn't to par but accepted it to blame for my mistakes, insecurities, and my way of life. I never once took responsibility for the being for which I am. only you hold the essence which is you, neither good nor bad happenings should hinder an individuals light. I took what was negative too drown what was me, the light I have inside.
Today I hold a child to bare into the world, which to me was filled with no more hope than my life...
I toast to your heart my love, may we be confident in ourselves and enjoy what life brings our way
FOOD PANTRY LIST NEWARK AND EAST ORANGE
just in case anyone needed help getting food please call these pantries for info!!!!!
Website:
www.northreformedchurch.org
510 Broad Street
Newark, NJ - 07102
973-623-3198
St Rocco's Outreach Project
Solution
712 Springfield Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07108
(973) 371-5266
The Apostle's House
18 Grant Street
Newark, NJ - 07104
(973) 482-0625
The Salvation Army - Newark
(Central)
45 Central Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07102
(973) 623-5959
St Bridget Support Center
404 University Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07102
(973) 799-0484
St Ann's Church Food Pantry
103 16th Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07103
(973) 642-5553
St Barnabas Aids Resource Center
505 West Market Street
Newark, NJ - 07107
(973) 481-0009
Positive Health Care Inc.
333 Washington Street
Newark, NJ - 07102
(973) 596-9358
Quest St Charles, Youth Services
85 Custer Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07112
(973) 824-4524
Renaissance Church Of Newark
400 7th Avenue
400 7th Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07107
(973) 481-3431
(973) 481-3431
Roseville Presbyterian Church
36 Roseville Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07107
(973) 483-3361
New Life Missionary Baptist
Church
392 Chancellor Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07112
(973) 705-8780
North Jersey Community Research
Initiative
393 Central Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07103
(973) 483-3444
New Community Family Comfort
Program-NCC
220 Bruce Street
Newark, NJ - 07103
(973) 623-6114
House Of Mercy Mission
573 Springfield Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07103
(973) 642-6226
Clear View Baptist Church
320 Hobson Street
Newark, NJ - 07112
(973) 926-0471
Communion Fellowship Ministries
260 Washington Street
Newark, NJ - 07111
(973) 639-2222
Website: http://www.Freedomministriesinc.org
989 S Orange Ave
Newark, NJ - 07106
973-372-2828
Website: http://www.uccnewark.org
31 Fulton Street
Newark, NJ - 07103
973-642-0181
Orange Valley House of Prayer
818 Hunterdon Street Fl1
Newark, NJ - 07112
973-230-3135
http://www.calvarybaptistnj.org/Soup_Kitchen_%26_Food_Pantry/
66 South Grove Street
East Orange , NJ - 07018
973-676-6467
New Ephesus Baptist Church
175 Brookwood Street
East Orange, NJ - 07018
(732) 388-1136
New Hope Baptist Church Pantry
144 Norman Street
East Orange, NJ - 07017
(973) 678-6710
Isaiah House
238 North Munn Avenue
East Orange, NJ - 07017
(973) 678-5882
East Orange Community Development
Corporation
490 Main Street
East Orange, NJ - 07017
(973) 266-5315
House Of Prayer C.O.G.I.C.
138 Hickory Street
Orange, NJ - 07050
(973) 676-8141
Website:
http://www.stmatthewame.org/
336 Oakwood Avenue
Orange, NJ - 07050
9736787322
North Jersey Community Research
Initiative
393 Central Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07103
(973) 483-3444
Bethel Church Rehoboth Ministries
55 Lawrence Street
Bloomfield, NJ - 07003
(973) 566-9100
Renaissance Church Of Newark
400 7th Avenue
Newark, NJ - 07107
(973) 481-3431
Bethel Rehoboth Food Pantry &
Meal Center
Stop by 55 Lawrence St or dial
the number below.
Bloomfield, NJ, 07003
(973) 566 – 9100
Bloomfield Presbyterian Church on
the Green
Address - 147 Broad St
Bloomfield, New Jersey 07003
(973) 743 – 1796
Christ Church Care Closet
Mary & Martha's Kitchen
393 Washington Ave
Belleville, New Jersey 07109
(973) 751 - 0616
Church Women United Food Pantry
1240 Clinton Ave
Irvington, NJ, 07111
(973) 373 – 5930
El Club del Barrio
76 Clinton Ave
Newark, New Jersey 07102
Call the center at (973) 624 -
4222
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