today is a GOOD day

I don't revolve my life around this man but when he is around he gets me weak in the knees.

I am happy today and it has nothing to do with sex or extra love. just everything to do with togetherness. he speaks to me about US about what he needs. I listen and take him all in. our souls have always met. no more caring of the other side I will have FAITH hope Love.

Faith is a belief attained when there is nothing showing you the way. You have faith with no proof or no need of substance. Just to believe in something, to believe in something more than What IS...

You are what IS to me...why I let anything or anyone come in between what we have is beyond me.

I am learning quickly though you are OURS.... hopefully we can be happy and start to progress soon

GOD IS GOOD

I don't care what you may say or what you may believe...MY GOD is always there for me.

 

I pray. We talk. He holds me close. and I, HIM....

 

I judge myself HE does not

 

I am hard on myself but HE gives me chances to do it right.

 

He has HOPE in who I am

 

I thank HIM

 

I owe him my happiness and life.

 

Thank you my LORD and Savior

sit it the FUCK down...

hahha

I don't know where she gets off acting like she know the situation...

"WE were trying...you dud US a favor??""
LMAOOOOO

you were not the only ones trying baby WE were also trying his ass would have been using a condom or not having sex with me and we was doing it like every other day...

So sit it the FUCK down....

"You can have the rest of him"
lol

I cant with you...you will fuck up quicker than Bruce LEE can chop you in the face

Honey im getting my game right he aint want me to leave. I didn't say "oh fuck me everyday so I can have your baby and keep you! lol "

YOU KNOW WHO GAVE US THIS CHILD GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
he knows whats best for HIS life and having a child with you aint it...lmao

so again....

SIT IT THE FUCK DOWN..
SHALL I REPEAT??

POINT MADE

SHE

She threatens to leave but so did I...
He agrees but I know that is not what he wants
His forgiving leads us all here yet again.
Over it goes time repeats.
Ive had many many many chances and now it is her turn if she takes them. idk
I don't know what will be but I in a way now she wont leave.
why leave a man so beautiful as he. so much to give but he doesn't know this which leads others to never think he will progress.
will she stay .....will she go...?
I will tell you on the next move that is taken.

I am staying.
As life has it, I am his forever.

Talks...talks...

MY lover and I had a long talk last night it didn't make any solution but it opened up a few thoughts. He doesn't know what the future holds for us but he does know he isn't leaving and he isn't abandoning me. He fought with his other lover yesterday and it made me uneasy to see him get the way he did. I am worried for his health. I need him strong physically and mentally.
He mentioned that there is this man deep inside that he knows is an amazing man that I have never met nor got close to meeting. I probably dreamed about this guy before. I want him around, maybe I can just be myself and see if he appears.
What he says I do:
I don't give him enough private time
I am financially unstable
I talk too much without thinking
my decisions are not the best
I am not confident or strong minded

Verdict- When he asks for a message just GIVE IT HIM lol

i knew it...it was always you

it was always you...
I was ready...
I knew you were coming
scared and ecstatic
I wait for your smile your company your love...
I feel it already
so much
it holds me
it pulls me
im wrapped in it..
you complete me
You it was always you
I felt I was missing something
and now I know
Ive always known

JuJu <3 p="">Mom