She...My friend

i had one...she was my favorite...many times i wondered twice, but i was convinced...she was the one...my only friend...she....
trust
love
comfort
fun
talent
Everything i wanted...only a wish in my mind...
wrong i was...she was just another muse...forget i wont...memories i would like to drown...hurt me so bad...broke my heart...
a never ending cycle...i had to put a stop...wish she knew her faults...eyeless, the mirror helps none...
wishing she well...i let go...a careless spirit chained my heart for good...
i free my mind
Goodbye

Old Friends

My old crew of friends became strangers. I know people are supposed to change but it seems like no one noticed their own CHANGES? I take responsibilities for my actions. I know when i find a new lover, i CHANGE. I know when my life is not going the way i want it, i CHANGE. But i also cherish my friendships very dearly. I put too much importance on others and with that, im done.
The thing is i tried to make it to the events or nights out that my "friends" invited me to. It was not always a convenient time for me. Regardless i made it out more than i should have...
On the other end i received nothing! I invited and invited and invited..putting emphasis on how important the events i threw were to me and can you guess who made it out?
thats right...
NOT 1 PERSON!
Waiving my white flag...im helpless...
I love you BUT i give up. Time has come....
My old crew this is for you. Your lack of compassion for my friendship has emptied my heart. I release you and hope you all a healthy life.
Let my mind rest.....

....finally ready....

so i've been kind of dreading writing about certain subjects bc i still don't know how i feel about them...i am a very passionate person and sometimes i don't want to feel so deeply about certain subjects...but these are unbearably weighing down on my mind, and maybe if i write about them...i will feel better or lift some thoughts from my mind.
here it goes...

Guess where I am?

ORLANDO!!!!!!!!
Free Hotel....Free Airfare....Paid 8hr days....
LIFE IS GREAT!
Yes, yours truly finally got the seasonal position at jetBlue!!!
this is how i look -----> :D!!!!!!
Its no vacation btw. Its classes and hard work. Def pays off when i get to travel F>R>E>E>!!!!
I love myself....I do this for me!
xoxoxo