rant

Today...
We woke up in bliss
Drove off to start a new
The new came with too many things to do
I became distressed with things not yet to come
I closed myself off to everyone
You closing my window
As I gathered my thoughts
An explosion beginning
without even a word
We both saw it coming but walked onward
I am not going to lie, I could have done what you asked for. I took no different path then what I have done before. You told me to head slow but my treading became unsteady. I continued to go until there was no more left for me. I understand I choose wrong but what I cant do is admit it, I am wrong as the sun in the middle of the night. As wrong as the killer who wants to do right. I am wrong and shamed for not knowing it quite. You are not perfect and the things you choose to say not always in the right place but I admit to never being a step ahead. I admit I could have made some better choices instead you are right for not believing in anything ive said for the time we will leave this at a small price to be paid until you are right and forever ill be paying in your debt.

Dreamer's Lounge

Ambience
Class
Silver bottom wine glass
Champagne flutes
White gowns with tints of rouge
Neon signs
Limited souls to finely whined
Arts on canvas
Shoes wore for dancing
Performing the charm
As a lover leaves the bar
Risk
Good Cause
All inside of the 21st century Dreamer's Boulevard

back again

Hello fellow bloggers,


I am back from yet another few months of what seems like endless torture. endless rehearsals shows thinking fights homework papers research bills hours at work dirty clothes gaining weight unfinished chores ....the list goes on and on.


I need time to vent, time to myself, time to let go and learn that I am fucked up.


What I need is time with myself. I get clouded in the vision of life. life seems to take over and knock the wind from my lungs.


in a few moments this blog will end and I will go back to my what feels like endless stress.




endless unhappiness