early morning phone calls

...................................................................................i..........................................................................................dont.....................................................................................like.................................................................................................them....................when......................................................its.................................................her.....................................................................get............................................................... it..........................................good................dont get it........................i.................................know....

probably never will. You say i don't trust you, I just need to understand you. If calling her in the morning and texting her throughout the day makes you happy, and you are not doing anything wrong then what am i to say? 

................nothing............bc..................a...........................friend...............i......................should....be.

not your enemy.........i..........dont.......................trust.............................................her.........................................................................................and.......................how....can..............this.......................friendship................take.....place...............if..................you..............cant..........be.......................around.............each.other?

iguessonlytimewilltell

......sweet lover......

juju<33 div="">

I write because I'm happy.

Life is a fucking roller coaster, first i know what i want then suddenly I don't know SHIT...
Emotions take over the realm of reality, getting you to forget what path is the one to take
I cry I laugh I shy away from death just one more day
The smile on the faces around me help me out of darkness, only for one more day
I want to start writing to record the emotions that stop me from the path at hand.
I write because I am happy
Happiness steers me wrong

What is love

He says he loves me
He says he loves her
What is love anyway?
Does love happen only at a convenience.
Only when the person is all you see.
He says he loves me
But also loves her
In different types of ways but
What is love anyway?
Love makes you feel complete
Love makes you feel alone
Love pulls you to despair
Love comforts you when all is lost
He does these things for me
He says he loves
Does he do this for her
What is love anyway
A mistake, a truth, a lie, a coincidence, a hug, a smile
what is love anyway
What ....is....love

HER

I wrote to HER today
Hopefully it wasn't in vain
What do I feel about what HER may say
I may know HER
I may not
My love for HER is not lost
I think why did i do it?
Do in need HER
Do i love HER
am i lonely
do i care about HER
She can only change HER I can't accept that

just...going...to...write

I feel it.
Deep down inside.
my own fault though.
I looked
I checked..
Nothing new...
I known all along
It is not ok
Ill drown myself in sorrows
in pain from the past because that is a lllllll we are right now....shadows of the PAST