satellites

i love living in the memories of the past, i wait and let them pour in
with music, movies, pictures, words, views
spilling over
things I've stored
thoughts I've found to be worth thinking

what i still don't like

there were many things in the beginning...
now it has dwindled tremendously
I want to be better be
me
but the ppl around are still willing to stand in the same shadow they made
shadows should follow our steps and not walk before us
i try and get tied back
maybe i should go
i think every single time
but i don't go
bc it feels better after the fact
im finding control
while they lose it
signing off

LAS VEGAS!

VEGAS

Lights, dry weather, casinos, drunk people, lots of cameras, beautiful sights.

I went to Vegas with a good friend around the 4th of July. He didn't really enjoy it because the financial situation between us wasn't "fun friendly". Meaning we couldn't do what we wanted. We were on a very tight budget. That is really rarely an issue for me since I LOVE to sight see.... Let me tell you what my experience was so that you'll know a little about going to VEGAS.

We flew on Jetblue which is the best airline ;)
Got in around early afternoon and took public transportation. The bus left us about 2 blocks from the strip, which isn't too bad but prepare for the DRY heat. If you can stay with a hotel that provides a free shuttle. After getting to the strip we had a few hours to kill before checking in so we walked up the strip and ate at Senior Frogs, which looked like a cool spot to spend the night.
We finally got to our hotel and relaxed in the pool. Went out for the night there is so much to see...
Paris themed hotel with a mini Eiffel Tower
Flamingos hotel with a live bird zoo in the back and of course FLAMINGOS!
Cesar Place with Greek statues everywhere.
We also went to movies which is my favorite past time. We walked the strip some more.
You can find deals everywhere make sure to go to Las Vegas website before you go.
We got the buffet for 24 hours which gave us breakfast lunch and dinner. It was amazing
We of course fought. looking back now (i am writing this 3 years later) I could have been way more chill and just enjoyed life. i was such a girl....either way it was a great experience


juju

Year 28.

It's upcoming. 

Less than a month, I become 28 years alive. 

Neither younger nor old. 

I still am amazed by the world. craving more. 

Well this year ill give it to myself. 

The lavish life...martinis. 

NYC views. 

Rooftops. 

Stylish looks. 

Dope company. 

Happiness.

Always looking.

i look at her and think ....how pathetic.
she looks back at me and i see... the pain, the confusion, the blame
Her eyes are sad but her smile as bright as day...
how could she be so bold....i sit and ask myself
I see how she forgets by trying so hard to not regret
I look at her and think... any moment now she'll cry

Soft Realness

Unexpected

Surreal

Unimaginably magical

You made yourself available

We touched lips

You stole me again

enveloped me into your cocoon

Too good to be True...

Who coined this phrase.?.

True can't be good?

True is not even to instill belief.

What could've HAPPENED to that individual. ???

Good is a false sense of hope..

Good revealed at its darkest hour

In fact our dormancy has caused us little faith

happiness on the ideals of fantasy fairytales..

Too good to be True is a fear, an excuse, an escape to continue on the road of shattered dreams and broken values. 

sweet dreams....butterfly kisses

<3 div="" juju="" nbsp="">

...There is....

...THERE IS....

PEACE

LOVE

MISTRUST

MISTAKES

JOY

PLEASURE

PAIN

CONFUSION

...THERE IS....

YOU

ME