If words could kill

Id be dead...

I do this to myself, looking at the way she describes her love for the man who has my heart.
He has led her the wrong path so i can't just hate her i can't just blame her. What am i to do? I love him and its obvious when leaving him got me right back in his arms. He doesn't want her. Think about it??
He called you all the time for help, he wanted to see you, you were in her house, in her car, he snuck away with you...but that made it worse to me playing with ppl emotions. Sex changes EVERYTHING. and i knew that, i kept away as long as i could.

Long time no WRITE...

so much has happened...I debate whether to up date all in one post or to chop it up...maybe chop it up so I can describe each in detail!

Last time we spoke I moved into my own apartment with the love of my life. THATS THE ONLY THING NORMAL YOU WILL HEAR FROM HERE ON OUT.

• We then allowed his lover to move in....yes you read RIGHT lol
• New Years happened..New beginnings, old habits die hard.
• I got a new job with Dollar rental company slash HERZ so much going on there.
• made great friends at Target love her to death!
• Valentine's Day times threeeeee
• Envy and mistrust
• Friends? maybe? maybe not?
• I may be pregnant.....

anywho lets get into this shall we?