Airport PET PEEVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >=D

As you all know i work at Newark Airport as a JetBlue counter associate. i can put up with only so much, but recently i have been finding my nerve crunchers!
Here are a couple things that i can not stand from my customers...

1. Please dont come to me assuming i speak spanish. Yes i am Spanish BUT i am not a comfortable spanish speaker! It throws me off balance and aggitates me when you walk up to my counter speaking your life story in Spanish... i will look at you and say "Excuse me?"

2. WAIT WAIT WAIT until i call you up!! if i am done with the person in front of you it does not mean i am done with my thought process... Yet again... another example of throwing me off balance and aggitating me!
I will NOT look up at you until i did what i had to do AND start something else minor, while you WAIT!

LAST but NOT Least...

NUMERO 3. If i accomadate you with an extra legroom seat or help you standby on a flt because YOU missed your flight, PLEASE be grateful and dont ask me for EVEN more accomadations!!!!!!!!!! NO...i will not be happy to give your picky ass a WINDOW SEAT...or something up front... JUST take what i gave you and keep moving.

That is it for now....Hopefully i dont run in to too many customers that push my buttons BUT when i do....they better be ready for me!!!!

lol
<3 JuJu

long time

NO SEE!
helloo BLOGGERS!

i am back on track...i think?! Anywho...i been working my ass off and been trying to get my finances straight.. I am a proud jetblue employee!!! Shit has been exciting and crazy! i will def recap on many thoughts and experiences i been having...
Speak to you soon!

BYE

She...My friend

i had one...she was my favorite...many times i wondered twice, but i was convinced...she was the one...my only friend...she....
trust
love
comfort
fun
talent
Everything i wanted...only a wish in my mind...
wrong i was...she was just another muse...forget i wont...memories i would like to drown...hurt me so bad...broke my heart...
a never ending cycle...i had to put a stop...wish she knew her faults...eyeless, the mirror helps none...
wishing she well...i let go...a careless spirit chained my heart for good...
i free my mind
Goodbye

Old Friends

My old crew of friends became strangers. I know people are supposed to change but it seems like no one noticed their own CHANGES? I take responsibilities for my actions. I know when i find a new lover, i CHANGE. I know when my life is not going the way i want it, i CHANGE. But i also cherish my friendships very dearly. I put too much importance on others and with that, im done.
The thing is i tried to make it to the events or nights out that my "friends" invited me to. It was not always a convenient time for me. Regardless i made it out more than i should have...
On the other end i received nothing! I invited and invited and invited..putting emphasis on how important the events i threw were to me and can you guess who made it out?
thats right...
NOT 1 PERSON!
Waiving my white flag...im helpless...
I love you BUT i give up. Time has come....
My old crew this is for you. Your lack of compassion for my friendship has emptied my heart. I release you and hope you all a healthy life.
Let my mind rest.....

....finally ready....

so i've been kind of dreading writing about certain subjects bc i still don't know how i feel about them...i am a very passionate person and sometimes i don't want to feel so deeply about certain subjects...but these are unbearably weighing down on my mind, and maybe if i write about them...i will feel better or lift some thoughts from my mind.
here it goes...

Guess where I am?

ORLANDO!!!!!!!!
Free Hotel....Free Airfare....Paid 8hr days....
LIFE IS GREAT!
Yes, yours truly finally got the seasonal position at jetBlue!!!
this is how i look -----> :D!!!!!!
Its no vacation btw. Its classes and hard work. Def pays off when i get to travel F>R>E>E>!!!!
I love myself....I do this for me!
xoxoxo

J.O.B.

I finally found a J>O>B>...
After searching for 3 weeks... It's not exactly what I wanted BUT i was getting desperate and I will not complain! I start next week back at my old job. The daycare... I am a teacher's asst, and get to wipe dirty asses all day...
The problem I have is...I was not promised an everyday shift so i wont be making a lot at first, but I am optimistic that it will get better...
Another small detail is some of the women there are quite boring and stereotypically white! lol The most interesting convos are about tanning, boyfriends, and purses...I am scared i will either dumb down or just not converse (which will eventually dumb me down bc i will be spending most of my time there and wont be using my communication skills).
You know what i just came up with an idea~
How about I try to provoke thought at this place! maybe change some views about life?! I think they are stuck in this world where you work go home sleep and repeat...I think there is a purpose for getting my job back! The universe has a plan for me ;)
keep you posted!

Physical....

My physical is tomorrow! I am sure everything will go well bc i chose not to do any drugs this weekend...which was strong of me! This weekend kicks off summer and i brought it in free of drugs! yay me...
I did drink (horribly)...now i am sick laying in my bed writing in a blog...:/ go figure

May 25th...

A day of surprise! A day that was half planned!
I had an appointment for an Echogram today... It was scheduled for Clara Maass hospital...I took my walk to the train which left me at Branch Brook Park, and walked the rest...
I went into Non-Invasive and was told to take my top off and bra...Then laid on my side and had pictures taken of my <3 ....BTW...that shit hurt, she was putting that little ball thing all in my chest!
anyhow! I decided while i was in Belleville i should go over to my old job and say hi to the ladies...so i went...
I saw Tara first (such a lovely  spirit to me)...Johanne second...Christina third...Then Monica...Jackie...Maria...Tainna....Nicole....Lauren...Beverly...Melissa...all the kids i used to know..then headed for the BIG LADIES OFFICE...I stopped bc i was scared of what she might say...I mean i wasn't planning on going in and asking for my old job back BUT i should bc I haven't found one yet and it has been 3 weeks!
So long story comes down to....
I left Janette a message saying I was done with school and had the summer free and i wanted toknow if they might need some help!
She calls me back ....says they would LOVE to have me back...Physical will be schedule next weds...and Orientation will be JUne 6th and 7th!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!
The day ended with me succeeding in my goal...
Thank you MAY 25th!

A whole month...

On our last chat about a month ago...I shared a small vision with you about CIGS! 

This visit will be many memories that have occurred in the past month... I will tell you about my downs...my ups...my hallucinations....my eating habits...my new way of thinking...

I will share it all... 

Cigs...

I am not a fan of cigs. I find them quite repulsive, but when i find them i feel they need me. Or maybe i need them. To my surprise I keep them. Often stashing them away until one day i have a few hours to myself. I am not a bad person, but sometimes want to do BAD things. Singing and cigs don't mix, still i find myself intrigued. Cigs... the escape from myself for a moment. Why escape? I ask this over and over again. I am not a bad person, but sometime want to do bad things. The sky seems so bright, yet i tend to find the darkest corners. Thoughts seep deep into realms of blackness. I never seek cigs, but they occasionally seek me. I am not a bad person, but i sometimes..seek Bad things...

Scream....Storm...

Stress....Music....Promotion....Parties...Planning....Pushing....Weight Gain....Friends....Relationship....Love....Beams....Family....Money...Work....School....Excersize...Niece...Nephew...Fun Time...WOrk....Music....Parties...Beams....New...Old...Vacation...Stress

...AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Reading this fast enough might give you a glimpse of how my brain moves....lol Its hard being me...I don't like it sometimes only bc my mind is ALWAYS on the move....ALWAYs...Maybe this is what has me looking like Storm lately!? 

A single white hair has grown in the front of my hairline! 

Yes a.... WHITE HAIR!!!! omg i know.. 23 years old and finally it happens...

It didn't or doesn't bother me too much but i have over analyzed it to the point where NOW....its bothering me -__- just the thought! 

Well its time for a vacation...but its not very likely... :( hopefully soon you will read a miracle blog from me! lol 

I've missed you..

I have been going through "it"... But what better place to talk about "it" than here my person public diary O_o lol
Well when it comes to my emotions i am a bit of a loner. i rather not talk about my feelings. Especially because i don't have "friends" to talk about them with... Yes i don't have "friends"...many associates, but no real companion. its difficult to trust and love someone now a days.
anyway enough of that sob story, i missed writing to you... my ears...my hope...my sanity...

@ianWellz

Please download and help us figure out what song he should perform for April 11th!!! Comment and let us know your fav!!!

xox thank you

Chocolate Man

The heat...

makes the situation sticky...

You melt in my mouth...in my hand...in my body...

You drip down my skin...

I put fruits on a stick... and prepare for your visit..

Oh my tongue dances behind my lips...

my toes curl in my sandals...

cant time go faster and then stop suddenly... for dessert..

Oh Chocolate Man...

Your beauty is divine...

I will be what you want me to be...

Chocolate man...

bring me what i've been craving...

Ill wait..

on my front porch,..

ill listen for your tune...

The tune i can not hear through winter, spring and fall

It rings...

in my head..

thoughts about yours, make me sweat...

i perspire...

Waiting...wanting...craving...

Words of Wisdom

This man ::my best friend:: always has the right thing to say... he always knows what to say when to say it and how to say it... he is such a chess player..

His words seem so powerful, his voice can lead the world...i am convinced! 

He believes in change, he believes in a purpose, and he inspires me...

I believe him...

Change is close...

I hear it when he speaks....

His voice...

makes me tremble... with thoughts that scare me...

Words...flow...archaically...through time and space...to change the world...he speaks now...make silence...he speaks now...Listen Up...

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Charlie Sheen ;) in "Being John Malkovich"

Last night i burned it down with a friend and watched "Being John Malkovich" it was a comedy but it took me for a serious trip.
John Cusack plays a puppeteer and Cameron Diaz plays his wife. Cusack finds a job in a NY building on the 7 1/2 floor  0_o... In the office Cusack finds a door which then becomes a portal into John Malkovich's head for only 15 minutes! Wait do you know what happens after 15 minutes?? You get spit out onto the side of the NJ turnpike! lol Yes i know!?.... Well....He uses this portal to first make some serious cash, by renting the body out to the public for $200 a ride until, Malkovich finally realizes something is wrong. Malkovich started seeing a woman that is Cusack's business partner named Maxine. Maxine has Cusack's wife go in and have an affair with her bc they both get a rush out of it.
Lets take a break here...


At this moment last night I was in a different dimension bc i feel like i was a puppet... Charlie Sheen ends up being Malkovich's friend and is playing himself which is quite funny and weird bc he has been talked about all week! Oh yea... Malkovich is an actor in the movie that is why Charlie is his close friend.... Now i am thinking this movie is nuts. Its about drugs, insanity, deceit, and retardation. It had my mind all over the place.
Back to the movie...


Now Cusack wants to be with Maxine and so does his wife. This is where the trip began. Cusack tied his wife up so that he can go out on a date with Maxine as Malkovich! He goes and perfects his puppeteering by staying in his body and moving him for years.
I wont spoil the end of the movie for you but it becomes kind of "Twilight Zone" sci-fi!
I do recommend you see it and make your own decision to what this movie signifies. It was def a trip funny at times, weird at others, complex....

MY PLAN :D

ARE YOU READY?

HERE IS MY PLAN... not in any particular order.... yet...

Work my ass off
Practice everyday
Audition
Study
Get into programs (summer, young artist)
Become known
Network
Travel
Get signed
Use the Media
Build steps for Upcoming artists
Merge the gap between Europe and America... Musically
Stay true to myself

I think it is going to be great!
Travel (check)
Help (check)
Sing (check)
Change (check)

Will you follow my success story...even if you aren't accustomed to what i do?

So i have a plan...a plan... finally...

As you know....i have been back and forth with who i was? what i was supposed to be? what made me so special? where to go? traveling? mentoring? etc.

and i think i have figured it out!!!!!!

I have a voice (beautiful one at that)... I can make change! i can make change! My voice will count...

I will sing beautiful music and make the world listen...
I will help my friends along the way...
I will be able to travel...
I will be able to love...
I will be true to myself...

The hardest part about change is feeling different. As long as your true to yourself change should be wonderful...

I am going to jump... its a scary thought but here i go....
....
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it feels so refreshing....

My career...

I have been thinking about my career a bunch lately and its time to jot this down! lol
After i graduated high school I was determined to become an Opera Singer well frankly bc i have the talent and its great money and TRAVELING!!! I pretty much fell in love with the concept until recently...
Recently i have noticed i have some really horrible habits and i don't know if i will ever be able to change them.
FOR EXAMPLE...
I like to have fun, which might mean partying, drinking maybe smoking a little Plant, I GET DOWN!!!... and also i get really really really LAZY!!! Rainy days make me lazy, Being in love makes me lazy, being stuffed gets me lazy...
So i started thinking what else would i enjoy that has traveling and music involved?
I had an answer!
MUSIC BUSINESS!
What in music business...you ask? Well i decided on becoming an Artist Manager!
I love to help the talented and deserving..This career would let me do just that and also travel and also work with musicians!!! Perfect right?
Recently i was in "Carmen" the opera at my school and i fell in love all over again! It was an addiction every time i went onstage! It was AMAZING!!!
Now here i am at a crossroads...
Manager? Singer? Manager? Singer? Both? Possible? Impossible?
I cant decide...
I need more time!!

Hello World..

i am back and i am on a little mission... I am "working" on myself....
I wont be on Twitter, i wont be on Facebook... I will be living my life without thinking about anyone else but myself...
Selfishness ..i guess thats what its called..right?
well all my life i never knew what selfishness really was and that has gotten me nowhere...
ill just take this time now... take it slow...and enjoy it...

HELLO AMERICA!!!!!

LOL....

i am just in a great mood..

i have a great life...

with great people...

its just Great great great!!!!!

SIKE>>> LET ME STOP

Ne way... I have lots to talk about... lots of ideas spinning ing my head...

Soon i will start posting videos so we can get to know me! you notice i said WE can get to know ME...?
YEs i need to explore myself..im a bit nervous but this will be good!

Music..AHHHH...Radio sucks

I cant anymore of this "radio" music! It has no essence... no meaning... why?
Is it bc we as a ppl are scared of change!? Dont be...
I want everyone to realize yes music should be fun... yes sometimes meaningless music is def called for... but seriously when was the last time you heard a song that moved you? When was the last time you heard a song that made you think "wow, i never thought of that"? When was the last you heard a song that spoke about...war? true love? the world? polotics? and MEANT something to you???? OMG!!!!
I want to close my eyes and have a picture painted for me when i turn my radio on... Music should be Art!

Relationships...

This is just going to be a "My Thoughts" on relationships....
They are overrated..
The title is useless...
Men have double standards...
Women are not perfect but want to be...
ALWAYS.....take....your...time....
N*o *s*p*a*c*e                     is harmful...
S    P   A    C    E       is needed...
think before you talk...
Apologies are always a good way to go...if your wrong then your wrong...
keep sex alive...
Gear away from routines!!!
watch pornos together...  ;)
Tell each other a secret every once and a while...
Fireworks will not always happen when you want them to... dont expect!

I have been in a "relationship" since i can remember...

Take it from ME... lol

i am way over-due!

sorry folks! i have some great tpics coming your way! stay tuned!

Tonight... <_<

The night that has me writing...  I shouldn't be too upset with this night...
Well let's start with last night! My boo's thing is music production so he was finishing up, finalizing "Breaking The 4th Wall"... A mixtape by the very talented Trills...
::follow him btw @trillytrills:: well I came home to him still working, so he told me I have about an hr left then I should be done! Now I was excited when he told me bc I wanted to spend time with him you know that quality time ::wink wink:: so before I came to his house for the night I went home and pampered myself! Took a shower shaved my armpits and WASHED MY HAIR! with the incentive that he will smell me and just be turned on! Well this was hardly the case... I laid down to nap for that hour or so until he was done to get my energy up bc I was sure he was going to wake me... (it was about 12am)... Well quite the contrary! He left me sleep to then proceed in watching PORN! WTF! PORN! I wake up to him just sitting there watching the shit and I was quite upset.. Not bc he was watching it but bc of many obvious reasons I stated before.. Anyway now I'm up (3:29am) just writing bc I can't deal with him right now!!! Ughhh and I'm wide awake so I just have to deal... Yet again!
Story of my life!

JetBlue The company You will Know and Love!

I had the opportunity to have an interview with JetBlue airlines!!!! I was determined to get this job bc it is like pretty much my only hope for a real great job... I repeat a really great job!!! I prepared myself like crazy for this job, I researched... Studied... Prepared... Ughh I did everything! Well needless to say I did ok! Bc I got a response back... Filled out my background check which was step 2... Now I'm scheduled for a physical exam!!! Ahhhhhh!!! I am so excited :D see that! That's me : D well Friday is my physical I hope it goes exceptionally well... And and and I'll let you know my progress!

Xmas :D

#wow
Words can not put into detail the year I had seriously!
My Xmas was dreadful at first bc I really couldn't afford to buy what I wanted even though I attempted! Well I worked the night before until 2am! Then I went home and woke up to spend Xmas with the Special Someone! He hasn't been so "lovey" in the past but this year was different! He gave me a Mani, Pedi, and Message! All while watching Xmas cartoons... It was pretty awesome... Then he took me out to eat! I loved it <3 I love him <3

Sick...work...

They went hand in hand this week! I had a bad cold and I'm 99.9% sure my boss gave it to me! Well I went to work for Xmas Eve and it was packed BUT he had three of us working so... The tips were bad :(
::I bartend btw::
He also went to pay me the next day which resulted to paying me a week later bc I didn't come in Xmas Day... I was enjoying my Xmas a little too much ::even still being sick::

Happy New Year!!!

Yes I know I am late! But late is better than Never... ::Never late is better:: remember that! Well here is a recap of past week ::hasn't been much::
1. Sick
2. Work
3. Christmas :)
4. JetBlue interview
5. Blah
6. Blah
7. Blah
::caught ya!::
8. JetBlue Response
9. Tonight... /: smh
Well I'll write a little bit about each!

Lunar Eclipse..

It was such a beautiful sight last night...
I should have taken pictures just like everything else but... I didn't! Smh
No but I really tried, my camera phone was too WACK! lol
Well google sure has pictures!
Enjoy!